A wise woman once told me, “Sometimes when you do too much, it can back fire at you… But always think of his future as if it’s yours. Do things for him, do things for the both of you in the long run…” It’s safe and evidentially clear that relationships aren’t easy. Or maybe they are, and maybe I’m just crazy. However, realistically we can say they’re some work. How do we live in this world and try to remain sane all while being tied to someone else? It’s tough. You’re not perfect and neither is the person you’re journying through life with. In this sh*tty world you have to find someone not so sh*tty to have your back. I’m one person that can say “I’m not good with my words.” And sometimes that’s okay, sometimes it’s not, but sometimes it is. It’s okay to not verbally speak what’s on your mind. Because sometimes words kill it all. It’s the actions you do that should make someone understand that you’re there for them. I’m not someone who is always jolly and cheerful. I have a bad attitude and I make mistakes. However, I am someone who will always have your back, even when you don’t think I do. I’m someone who is thinking of the best and hoping for the best for you and your future, even when you don’t think I’m contributing. I’m the type of person who cheers for you on the inside so you don’t get all big headed and think this is the finish line.
I am someone who appreciates, respects, and loves hard. But maybe I should express my feelings and thoughts aloud more often. I understand I’m not perfect and accept that. My heart breaks when people I care about think I don’t care about them due to my stubbornness and lack of emotion. But those who know me and those who understand me, know that I am working for myself and those I love. I have every single person’s back that I care about because I know they have mine. I’m stubborn and probably not worth it to many, but I’m worth it to myself and that should be good enough for anyone.
I’ve found my not so sh*tty person in this sh*tty world, and if you’ve found that person too, push everything aside: the stubbornness, the attitude, the lack of affection and emotion, and be there for that person just like you want them there for you. We need to realize that we are part of a team, and now it’s all about “ours.”