Monday, monday, monday.

I read something today that I found very interesting.

You don’t hate Monday, you hate your job.

This is something I think not many people think of. Everyone hates that the weekend is over, like they didn’t get what they wanted done. But, I’m sorry to be so blunt, whose fault is that? Um, yours. You’re the one stopping yourself from enjoying your “free time.” And those who say “I would like to do things I want, but I have to work.” Again, it’s your fault you’re “work” isn’t something you love. If you don’t see yourself doing this job for the rest of your life, why are you there? Why are you wasting what precious time you have in this life somewhere you’re miserable? Yes, you may be getting your career figured out by going to school, but thankfully for us we live in a world of opportunity: internships and the power of marketing. Market what you do in your free time to make it your career so you can finally quit your job and solely focus on that one thing you love. Take an internship to whatever you plan on doing in the future, the opportunities are there, you’re just not looking hard enough. Be someone who’s Monday is their Friday. Hell, be someone who doesn’t even know what day of the week it is because life is just that good.

VDAY 2k16

This years Valentines Day photos definitely have to be one of my favorite shoots so far. As a freelance photographer, I’m always looking for DIY projects and anything to capture. Thank to both my sister and my sister-in-law for the beautiful models, my niece and nephew. Also thank you to everyone who puts up with my crazy ideas, helps me do whatever it takes to get the perfect pictures, and supports me no matter what. Little by little, I love my work and what I do more and more; and it’s all because I have a great support system. Ready for more DIY projects and 2016 photoshoots!

Be proud of you. 

Be proud of yourself, who you are, and how far you’ve come. Life isn’t a race, and it sure as hell isn’t easy. Some people just get it right the first time, and then some people don’t. I don’t know about most, but I’m speaking for myself- sometimes it’s discouraging looking at the long journey ahead to get to where you wanna be. But having those thoughts, and continuing to think of everything and what needs to be done, means you see a future for yourself. Yeah, it’s hard, and sometimes you think to yourself, “shit, am I ever going to finish?” But you know what? You will. It may seem like forever and it may seem like too much time is being wasted… but you need to be proud of who you are, in addition to your mistakes. We all make mistakes and we all regret them once they’re done, but we have to push forward and own up to them. I coulda done this different and I should’ve done that better. I should’ve planned my life more thoroughly and gone through the motions- but I didn’t, and I’ve learned to accept it. Because in the end, I’m proud of how far I’ve come. To others it may seem like I’m still caught up in the same spot from 2 years ago, but I know how far I’ve gotten in those 2 years, and I’m damn f*cking proud. You know who I do it for? I do it for the people I love, and most importantly, myself. I love me and I’m proud of me- and I won’t let anyone take that away from me, no matter how many rocks are thrown and how many bumps in the road I hit… I will keep pushing myself, and I will continue to be my #1 fan. 

worth it. 

A wise woman once told me, “Sometimes when you do too much, it can back fire at you… But always think of his future as if it’s yours. Do things for him, do things for the both of you in the long run…” It’s safe and evidentially clear that relationships aren’t easy. Or maybe they are, and maybe I’m just crazy. However, realistically we can say they’re some work. How do we live in this world and try to remain sane all while being tied to someone else? It’s tough. You’re not perfect and neither is the person you’re journying through life with. In this sh*tty world you have to find someone not so sh*tty to have your back. I’m one person that can say “I’m not good with my words.” And sometimes that’s okay, sometimes it’s not, but sometimes it is. It’s okay to not verbally speak what’s on your mind. Because sometimes words kill it all. It’s the actions you do that should make someone understand that you’re there for them. I’m not someone who is always jolly and cheerful. I have a bad attitude and I make mistakes. However, I am someone who will always have your back, even when you don’t think I do. I’m someone who is thinking of the best and hoping for the best for you and your future, even when you don’t think I’m contributing. I’m the type of person who cheers for you on the inside so you don’t get all big headed and think this is the finish line. 
I am someone who appreciates, respects, and loves hard. But maybe I should express my feelings and thoughts aloud more often. I understand I’m not perfect and accept that. My heart breaks when people I care about think I don’t care about them due to my stubbornness and lack of emotion. But those who know me and those who understand me, know that I am working for myself and those I love. I have every single person’s back that I care about because I know they have mine. I’m stubborn and probably not worth it to many, but I’m worth it to myself and that should be good enough for anyone. 
I’ve found my not so sh*tty person in this sh*tty world, and if you’ve found that person too, push everything aside: the stubbornness, the attitude, the lack of affection and emotion, and be there for that person just like you want them there for you. We need to realize that we are part of a team, and now it’s all about “ours.” 

Love Your Work

First, I’d like to start out by saying I’m sorry for my lack of posts in the recent weeks; my schedule has been beyond crazy. Sure, I’ve had a few minutes here and there that I could have squeezed in a post, but then it would have been forced. When I blog or when I “write” I like for it to come naturally, something that actually means something to me, or something that’s happening in that moment in my life that could potentially be happening to others. But here I am, sitting at school, attempting to study for what feels like the midterm of my life, and all I can think about it blogging. Crazy, isn’t it? How someone can love something so much? And I’m not talking about how I love blogging, I’m talking about how I love writing. I’m lucky enough to have found something I’m passionate about; and that’s what life really is, isn’t it? Finding something you love and turning it into a career? As an English major I have a love/hate for reading and writing. I hate that in school I’m forced to do, yet when I’m not doing either of the two, I find myself yearning for it (hence, reasons why I started a blog). and It’s funny because it’s not only with English that people are like this, and it’s not only me that’s like this; people feel this way about so many things. For example, you can be an accounting major and hate every minute of it while you’re in class, but you think about your future as an accountant and it all seems worth it. Same for business majors. You stress yourselves out, pull your hair out doing presentations and papers; yet you have so many ideas and visions that it makes you excited to put it all to the test in your future. That’s what life is, finding something you love and running with it, turning it into something magical, something you’re passionate about. Hate it now and love it later; turn your hard work into something you can’t live without.

New Week- One Life

Life never seems fair, really. You work too hard. You try too hard. You love too hard. And then it all feels like you did it for nothing. But you’re wrong, it was for something. For the sake of pushing yourself and bettering yourself as a human being. For making yourself feel worthy and strong enough. You can stress yourself out by juggling a million things at a time, or take things at a slow, steady pace and make it the best you can… all while being happy. Be a lover of life, not someone who hates every moment of it. The only thing we have in this life is the freedom to be happy and be who we are. Don’t let it go to waste because you think you need to kill yourself tryna play the game. You’re smart, you’re strong, and you’re great. Let it shine, and embrace the one life you’ve got. 

New Week- I Appreciate You

I never really tell you that I appreciate you. So here it is:

I appreciate that you support me
I appreciate that you believe in me
I appreciate the smiles you bring me
I appreciate that even though life gets tough and our roads begin to go their separate ways you always stick by my side and bring us back together
I appreciate the love that’s given to me
I appreciate the strength you give me
I appreciate the knowledge I gain from having you around
I appreciate the friendship we’ve created
I appreciate your loyalty
And most of all, I appreciate you

There are people we come across in our lives that we don’t really show appreciation for. That’s because they’re part of us, and we don’t naturally applaud and appreciate things about ourselves and things within our lives. Appreciate the people who deserve it, appreciate them because they’re the reason you’re happy right now. Find that person, and cherish them forever.